Just as I supposed: Lady Dedlock is Esther’s mother, and it is in this illustration above that they meet to discuss it on the Ghost Walk.
“I knew I was innocent of my birth, as a queen of hers; and that before my Heavenly Father I should not be punished for birth, nor a queen rewarded for it. I had had experience, in the shock of that very day, that I could, even thus soon, find comforting reconcilements to the change that had fallen on me. I renewed my resolutions, and prayed to be strengthened in them; pouring out my heart for myself, and for my unhappy mother, and feeling that the darkness of the morning was passing away. It was not upon my sleep; and when the next day’s light awoke me, it was gone.”
I love Esther Summerson for her eternally bright optimism and goodness.
I am reading this book for the Bleak House read-along hosted by Amanda at The Zen Leaf.